They were too much in love. It was an unmistaken fact. The look in his eyes, the smile on her face, the way his hands brushed hers and the glow on her cheeks caused by the constant blushing.

I watched them closely while he ordered food for both of them. I heard their laughter. I watched them share the dessert. So magical and movie-like, it seemed unreal.

It was like deja vu.

Only this time it wasn't just a 'feeling' of familiarity.
It was real.

I blinked.

And during that split second shut-eye, I saw myself in front of him.

2 years ago.

I had the same smile on my face, the same glow on my cheeks, and even the same dessert.

There's all kinds of quotes or 'words of wisdom' as they like to call it for people feeling low.

Every cloud has a silver lining.
This too, shall pass.
There's always light at the end of the tunnel.

They're probably supposed to make people feel better about their current situation by consoling them with a brighter future.

What do you do when you realise that your present is happy and your future is dark?

She ponders and scratches her brain for wisdom words to adhere to the situation currently being exposed to her existence.
She looks at the person playing the main role. A hero? A villain?
She does not know.
The future holds the truth, but the future's dark. She wonders why. She looks for the light at the end of the tunnel.
She realizes, she walked into the tunnel from the wrong side.
She surpassed the light.
Now her destination is nothing but eerie darkness, surrounded by bitter truths, sweet nothings and broken dreams.

I've been waiting so long. Walking on this dark, spiral road which leads to nowhere.
I've been walking for so long.
You bastard.
I've been scared.
Why didn't u care?
I've stumbled and fallen.
You were never there.
I gave u so much.
I want payback.

Empty promises, lies, games. Shoved in my face like I was a toy.
Take it back, asshole. Take away ALL the pain u caused me. Give me my life back. Give me my wasted time back. Give me my faith back.

Take away this big blotch of regret from my conscience. Take away those dark blurs that ur memories leave behind.

May u have eternal distress and agony.

The joke's over, it's not funny anymore.

Sadly, I loved you.

He's so good with words. Everytime he says something, she sees herself falling for him more and more. He always knows what to say. He knows it when she wants him to tell her he loves her. He knows how to cheer her up. Hell, for him she would do anything. Anything at all.

He was, what they call, the master of puppets.

She lives her life for people. People she cares for, people who mean the world to her. Her laughter endorsing joy under a thick veil of emptiness. Yes, she has grown up too soon.

Once again, she would sell her soul, just to have her head rest in her mom's lap..

...and just cry.

They say everyone has a soulmate in this world. She believes it to be true.
After all, he was the perfect father to her kids, and the sole bread earner in the family who fulfilled all his family's wordly and materialistic desires.

He claims to love her. He looks at her and smiles, the hollowness in her heart remains unnoticed, as do the mist in her eyes,..


...along with her tattered torn clothes and her bruised face.